To be Great

There is this huge canvas that has been sitting in my bedroom for quite a while. Months actually.

huge canvas

You see I decided I was going to start painting. Great plan huh? Well, I went big. I went all the way.

The true purist I am, I didn’t buy just acrylics, I bought oils (..those are um, real I later bought acrylics).  And I didn’t buy no piddly beginner canvas, I bought the biggest one I could find at Michaels. Cause I’m hardcore.

Night after night I fell asleep, looking at that canvas glistening in the moonlight, dreaming of showing my work to Art Dealers. Oh! the conversations we would have as they walked around my garage covered with masterpieces:

“You mean you have no training?”

“No ma’am, I just picked up the brush one day…and started painting.”

“Where did this all come from… what inspired you??”

“Oh… just the intense, depth of my emotion.”

grandma & paints

Dreaming is necessary. Dreaming big is even better. It’s one of the things that pushes us out of our monotonous day-to-day routine. To dream is to challenge our expectations. It is one of the most beautiful trademarks of our generation.

The older I get, the more I dream, and the grander they become, there is that creeping thought that maybe I can’t do “It.” Maybe I cannot succeed. Maybe I will try my absolute best and it will be absolutely awful.

To some these might seem like very insignificant fears, but at times they have absolutely crippled me. I think that many of us on some level can relate to this feeling – this need – to be great.

The truth is, I can’t tie this up with a pretty bow.  I have grand dreams of impacting those around me, but often times I’m too lazy or fearful to get close enough to others to actually make a difference in their lives.

I would love to paint a masterpiece but I don’t know how to paint and I haven’t tried.

So! here’s to dreaming big, taking a deep breath, following through, making huge mistakes, laughing about it & everything in between!

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